Getting Oregonized

Random thoughts & observations before, during & after a cross-country move to Portland, Oregon in June 2006.

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

And Then There Were Two

Yesterday, I found out that my dream job has come down to one other person and me. I think I liked it better when I didn't know how many people I was competing against. It immediately shot my confidence level & made me turn into that anxious mess I was just talking about. Oh, it also made me dislike that other person right away. Isn't it funny how that works? Like an ex-girlfriend of your boyfriend...you don't have to know her to know you don't like her. She's competition & therefore must go!

The mind works in mysterious ways. Just the other day, I was thinking about how 'right' everything felt with this prospect. I wasn't even considering my competition b/c I was so confident in getting the job. But as soon as I found out that it could go to someone else, my bravado evaporated. I got totally down on myself & thought, "Well, of course that other person is going to get the job" without even knowing anything about her. I don't even know if it IS a her! Why is it that we are so quick to assume the worst when having a positive attitude takes much less effort?

It took me a while to calm down & realize that having this knowledge doesn't really change anything (except my blood pressure). I still don't have any control over the situation. The best I can do right now is breathe deeply, do a few downward dogs, think calming thoughts & regain my positive attitude.

Exhaling,
PortlandGirl

1 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

GOOD THINKING! Megha would be so proud you are using your Yoga! This seems like a longer job interview process than Donald Trump! But it's what you want so you hang in there!

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